Well I lied. I said sore gums or not, I'd be at the gym. That did not happen.
This morning, my mouth didnt look right. To spare you the gory details, I'll just say there was blood and my gums were still very swollen. I ended up rushing back to the dentist, only to find out that during the cleaning yesterday they cut my gums and there is some tissue damage. They are still swollen and very sore. After all the emotion of seeing my gums like this and feeling the pain, I just decided to rest and stay home. My mouth looked different, and more than anything I felt very self conscious.
By 5 this afternoon, I was sick of laying on the couch. Since my friend Ashleys bday celebration is Saturday, the girls all decided to wear dresses. I thought I'd go out and look, and maybe spluge on a new one. I ended up finding a dress and falling in loved with it. I was torn between the size that fits perfectly, and a size bigger, which is where I'm most comfortable. But then boyfriend conveniently pointed out that I wanted more than one wear out of the dress, and I needed to get the one that fit me. Between my rollercoaster from the morning and then that small victory with the dress, I feel motivated again. I missed the gym the past two days, and I've felt bad about my mouth and the pain, and how it looks. Now its time to stop feeling bad for myself and get back to it.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Monday, February 28, 2011
Numb
Literally....for 4 1/2 hours today my mouth was numb!
Today was part 2 of my deep cleaning, which apparently involves 8 shots to my gums. The cleaning itself was short, but the after effects were miserable. The right side of my face was literally drooping and swollen. If I talked, only one side of my mouth moved. I couldnt feel anything for most of the day. Once the numbness wore off, the pain set in. My gums are still swollen and throbbing, but I'm happy that the worst is over and hopefully I wont have to do this again.
This did not start my week off very well. I didnt get to work out today, so I feel bloated and gross after laying around all day. Tomorrow, sore gums or not I'm going to the trainer! Hopefully, the week gets better from here!
Today was part 2 of my deep cleaning, which apparently involves 8 shots to my gums. The cleaning itself was short, but the after effects were miserable. The right side of my face was literally drooping and swollen. If I talked, only one side of my mouth moved. I couldnt feel anything for most of the day. Once the numbness wore off, the pain set in. My gums are still swollen and throbbing, but I'm happy that the worst is over and hopefully I wont have to do this again.
This did not start my week off very well. I didnt get to work out today, so I feel bloated and gross after laying around all day. Tomorrow, sore gums or not I'm going to the trainer! Hopefully, the week gets better from here!
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Long Time....
It has been awhile...I'm a slacker.
I think so much has gone on recently I havent even thought about blogging. I really have nothing important to talk about, no new accomplishments or anything, but I want to get back int the habit of doing this, so here goes the last few weeks:
Shortly after our Orlando trip, my papa (grandpa) got sick and passed suddenly. Dealing with that and the family and funeral was stressul and sad. He was 90 and had alzheimers for awhile and had only been getting worse. He lived a great life and I have piece in the relationship I had with him growing up, heck I practically lived at his and Manny's house when I was younger. The sadness has passed, now that I see my Manny will be ok. In order to get my mind off things, I headed to Charleston that weekend after the funeral.
I went to visit an amazing friend, and being with her is always the pick me up I need. I really had a blast and worried about nothing the entire weekend. When I was driving home I just felt better, like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I really must have needed the time away, with good friends and fun!
During that trip, another one of my best friends got engaged! I got the call and I couldnt be more excited. Ash and Brian are a great couple and I'm genuinely happy for whats ahead for them!
That brings me to now. My main focus is training for the GRR and working to be debt free (no easy task for anyone that knows my credit cards). I've been focused on work and training. I really wish I was more exciting, but this is just my attempt to get back into writing. Hope everyone has a great week!
I think so much has gone on recently I havent even thought about blogging. I really have nothing important to talk about, no new accomplishments or anything, but I want to get back int the habit of doing this, so here goes the last few weeks:
Shortly after our Orlando trip, my papa (grandpa) got sick and passed suddenly. Dealing with that and the family and funeral was stressul and sad. He was 90 and had alzheimers for awhile and had only been getting worse. He lived a great life and I have piece in the relationship I had with him growing up, heck I practically lived at his and Manny's house when I was younger. The sadness has passed, now that I see my Manny will be ok. In order to get my mind off things, I headed to Charleston that weekend after the funeral.
I went to visit an amazing friend, and being with her is always the pick me up I need. I really had a blast and worried about nothing the entire weekend. When I was driving home I just felt better, like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I really must have needed the time away, with good friends and fun!
During that trip, another one of my best friends got engaged! I got the call and I couldnt be more excited. Ash and Brian are a great couple and I'm genuinely happy for whats ahead for them!
That brings me to now. My main focus is training for the GRR and working to be debt free (no easy task for anyone that knows my credit cards). I've been focused on work and training. I really wish I was more exciting, but this is just my attempt to get back into writing. Hope everyone has a great week!
Monday, February 7, 2011
Vacation Shame Spiral
Just as quickly as you accomplish something, you can lose it just as quick.
This past Thursday I went on a mini vacation with the boyfriend, my sissy, and her boyfriend to Orlando. We bought the boys tickets to the Orlando Magic vs. Miami Heat basketball game since they love the Magic. Needless to say, we made a few days of it and had an amazing time! I had not cheated in 5 plus weeks, without soda, alcohol, or delish cheat food. I took full advantage of this trip and did not think about calories or workouts and anything. I ate, drank, and was merry! I enjoyed myself so much that when I got home on Saturday and Sunday I continued to eat and drink how I wanted. I call it my 'shame spiral'. Its a loving term I use to refer to times when I just let my hard work go and eat and let it get away from me. I definitely did that this weekend.
I made the mistake of weighing this morning, which I knew would disappoint me. I had to know where I was at though. What I saw I didnt like. I knew a day or so of enjoying myself was fine, but 4 days was excessive. I know I have no one to blame but myself. But instead of being down on myself, I just use it as a learning opportunity. A friend told me today "remember when you cheating was a way of life? You've come so far and changed your life, just get back on it" That really resonated with me. The sluggish, sick feeling I had this weekend used to be my daily life. I used to eat crap and drink weekly and feel the need to nap every single day. Now, I feel like this shame spiral will jump start my metabolism again. Today felt like the detox day, and it felt so good to eat healthy. By today my body was almost craving it! So I gained 3 pounds this week, but I'm going to use my 'shame spiral' as motivation! Bring on a new week!
This past Thursday I went on a mini vacation with the boyfriend, my sissy, and her boyfriend to Orlando. We bought the boys tickets to the Orlando Magic vs. Miami Heat basketball game since they love the Magic. Needless to say, we made a few days of it and had an amazing time! I had not cheated in 5 plus weeks, without soda, alcohol, or delish cheat food. I took full advantage of this trip and did not think about calories or workouts and anything. I ate, drank, and was merry! I enjoyed myself so much that when I got home on Saturday and Sunday I continued to eat and drink how I wanted. I call it my 'shame spiral'. Its a loving term I use to refer to times when I just let my hard work go and eat and let it get away from me. I definitely did that this weekend.
I made the mistake of weighing this morning, which I knew would disappoint me. I had to know where I was at though. What I saw I didnt like. I knew a day or so of enjoying myself was fine, but 4 days was excessive. I know I have no one to blame but myself. But instead of being down on myself, I just use it as a learning opportunity. A friend told me today "remember when you cheating was a way of life? You've come so far and changed your life, just get back on it" That really resonated with me. The sluggish, sick feeling I had this weekend used to be my daily life. I used to eat crap and drink weekly and feel the need to nap every single day. Now, I feel like this shame spiral will jump start my metabolism again. Today felt like the detox day, and it felt so good to eat healthy. By today my body was almost craving it! So I gained 3 pounds this week, but I'm going to use my 'shame spiral' as motivation! Bring on a new week!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Mid Week Pep Talk
So my job is stressful. Let's face it-people get in accidents all the time. Luckily, it keeps me employed. But, the amount of accidents makes my job something that is never-ending. Just when I clear claims, there are 5 more in my task bank to look at. It's almost like a cycle where it feels like you cant keep your head above water.
Lately I decided that I wasnt going to stress so much. There are days that are so overwhelming I go home thinking that I really got nothing accomplished and feel like maybe a 12 hour work day would be better. Then there are days like today, where I catch a break and get most of my day to catch up and get a ton done! It's made me realize that my job can relate to a weight loss journey. Some days are so overwhelming that all you want to do is give up and eat that chocolate bar or drink that soda. But then there are days when you feel so on track and so motivated that nothing can stop you. Today was that day for me. I caught up on work, and that made me feel like its cyclical. Some days are worse than others and I shouldnt stress because the day will come when I get to catch my breath and get re-organized. Just with weight loss I have my frustrated days and days where I'm unstoppable.
I thinks its important to realize that its ok to have the down days, but not to dwell on them and let them overwhelm you. As quick as it comes, a better day is on the other side. Its just important to keep in my mind the "why" or motivation.
Not sure why this was on my mind, I think I might have needed a pep talk!
Lately I decided that I wasnt going to stress so much. There are days that are so overwhelming I go home thinking that I really got nothing accomplished and feel like maybe a 12 hour work day would be better. Then there are days like today, where I catch a break and get most of my day to catch up and get a ton done! It's made me realize that my job can relate to a weight loss journey. Some days are so overwhelming that all you want to do is give up and eat that chocolate bar or drink that soda. But then there are days when you feel so on track and so motivated that nothing can stop you. Today was that day for me. I caught up on work, and that made me feel like its cyclical. Some days are worse than others and I shouldnt stress because the day will come when I get to catch my breath and get re-organized. Just with weight loss I have my frustrated days and days where I'm unstoppable.
I thinks its important to realize that its ok to have the down days, but not to dwell on them and let them overwhelm you. As quick as it comes, a better day is on the other side. Its just important to keep in my mind the "why" or motivation.
Not sure why this was on my mind, I think I might have needed a pep talk!
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Hard Work Pays Off!
Ahh so excited! This weekend was proof that hard work really does pay off! First, I had a 5K Saturday morning in St. Augustine. My fastest 5K was 31:31, and that was last March after the GRR. Well, my goal this race was to beat that time, even if it was by a second. Well I kicked that time in the butt! My time was 30:18! I finished in the top half in my age group and 318 out of 1576 finishers! The craziest thing is, I didnt even feel that great while running. My chest felt tight and I couldnt keep my form right. I just felt out of sync, but somehow I pulled it out and ran a great race! I was so happy! My mom ran with me, and we were thrilled afterwards! Couldnt have been a better start to the weekend!
That brings me to this morning. Today was my weekly weigh-in. (again, only until I get to my goal) After a disappointing week last week, I was apprehensive. That and mother natures monthly gift dropping by, I wasnt so sure I had done enough this week. To my surprise I got on the scale and I lost 2.4 lbs this week! I have not been in this weight range in 3 years! I was so excited. I definitely screamed like a little school girl and woke the boyfriend up to share in my glory! I'm aware numbers shouldnt matter, but I have a goal and I'm getting there. Like my friend Ashley said on her blog, 'you dont quit a marathon at mile 25' and I most certainly am not. I'm hitting my goal, and this week has only motivated me more. I feel like all this work I've been doing in and out of the gym, not drinking, not cheating has been SO worth it! To celebrate I went out for a 4 mile run and it felt great. So ready to take on this new week!
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Working Hard
I've taken a few days off from blogging, but not from working out! I have been so on track the last 2 weeks and I've even lost 2 lbs! I've been training for the GRR 5 days a week while working out with my trainer 3 times a week. Overall, I've been exhausted but I'm starting to see changes in my body and that keeps me motivated.
Lately work has been a little overwhelming, but having the workouts with my trainer in the afternoons right after work has helped so much with stress. I noticed that I seem to leave it all at the gym. That way I can go into work with a clean slate just about every day. It's amazing the difference working out can make in your daily attitude and emotions. I feel like it keeps me a little more even throughout the day, even when things get crazy.
Oh and I'm excited this Saturday I'm running in a 5K. It's the Matanzas 5K in St. Augustine. I'm excited because I just love the adrenaline rush of racing. MY goal is to beat my best time, 31:31. Here's hoping for a PR!
Lately work has been a little overwhelming, but having the workouts with my trainer in the afternoons right after work has helped so much with stress. I noticed that I seem to leave it all at the gym. That way I can go into work with a clean slate just about every day. It's amazing the difference working out can make in your daily attitude and emotions. I feel like it keeps me a little more even throughout the day, even when things get crazy.
Oh and I'm excited this Saturday I'm running in a 5K. It's the Matanzas 5K in St. Augustine. I'm excited because I just love the adrenaline rush of racing. MY goal is to beat my best time, 31:31. Here's hoping for a PR!
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